Saturday, January 23, 2010

so excited!!

today i went and made a baby registry at target and while i was there i found this: ok i couldnt leave without getting maizie something, and this was just too cute! i was also thinking about all of the stuff on the list that i was making and as much as i was trying to avoid scanning everything that was pink it was hard not to. so probably she will look like somebody dumped pepto-bismol all over her until she can decide what she wants. poor kid. i hope she likes pink. but then i saw this and i knew maizie had to have it...and it might be the only non-pink thing she gets...ever... but the entire time i was scanning things i kept thinking about how much fun it will be to have her here, and how awesome it will be to dress her and take her shopping and teach her the importance of shoes and purses and chunky accessories:) and by the way, only 47 days left, if she is on time that is.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Yesterday's Madness

Yesterday was a crazy day for me as far as health goes. This blog post might be too much information for some people since it talks a little about bowel movements and that sort of thing, so skip this one if you're the type of person who gets bothered by that.

I woke up at about 6:30 AM as usual, but I was feeling a little bit queasy. I didn't think much of it, though, since it wasn't a very intense feeling. I began my morning routine as usual, but after my shower I was still feeling queasy and gross, so I decided that I should stay home from work. I wrote an e-mail to my coworkers to let them know.

Emily left for work at about 7:45. I don't know when my mom left, but whenever it was, that's when I was now home alone. I had many bowel movements that weren't fun, but that was about it. Then the queasy feeling in my stomach got a lot worse and I felt like I had to throw up. Since my bowels were so weak, I figured it would be best to sit on the toilet and hold a trashcan between my legs to throw up into. That's what I ended up doing, and at first I just dry heaved several times, but eventually I threw up.

After I had thrown up, I tried to relax. I was watching some nerdy videos on my laptop to get my mind off of the sickness, but I kept having to pause it to collect my composure. Eventually I felt the need to throw up again, so that's what I did using the same method as before. At that point, I felt like I was probably done throwing up, but I wouldn't be surprised if it happened again.

Slowly my condition worsened. I started getting short of breath and I felt dizzy. Throughout this whole time, I had been texting Emily to keep her updated. I could no longer focus on texting, so I called her. We decided that she should come home from work. She wanted me to stay on the phone with her, but at this point, I felt I needed my mom's help since she was so much closer than Emily or else I might pass out, so I called her. Unfortunately, she wasn't answering. I called and called, but there was still no answer. My breathing was so bad at this point that I was feeling very light-headed and my whole body felt like it was asleep and that I was about to pass out. That's when I decided to call 911. The last time I called 911 was when I was about 5 years old and didn't know any better. As I was giving them my address, I had big gaps in between each number because I was having such difficulty talking. Finally my mom came home while I was on the phone, so I had her come in and help me. She continued to talk to the 911 lady while I began my third puking session into the trashcan. After I finished, I didn't feel like I needed an ambulance since my mom was there, so my mom told the 911 lady that we would go to the hospital ourselves. And that's what we did.

At the hospital, we tried to go into the normal part so that we wouldn't have to have such a high bill by using the emergency room, but they referred us right to the emergency room. Once in the emergency room, my mom explained the situation and they put me in a wheelchair. I kept asking for oxygen and water, but they wouldn't give me either due to protocol. I didn't like that.

They put me in bed and did lots of tests. Soon Emily came and was at my side, which I was very grateful for. They would only allow one visitor at a time, though. At one point I started feeling extremely cold, most likely because of the IVs. My whole body was shaking. They kept asking me to slow down my breathing, but I could not. They put some kind of heating pad thing on me and that eventually helped a lot. I eventually fell asleep.

Emily called my manager to let him know that I most likely wouldn't be at work the next day either. She also called my dad and asked him to come give me a blessing, which he did. It was very good to have that.

I think I was at the hospital for a little under six hours altogether. It was quite an experience. I think all they really knew was that my white blood cell count was elevated. I'm guessing they'll know more later.

Today I'm feeling much better. I'm still having lots of bowel movements and I still feel weak, but this is nothing compared to yesterday. Yesterday was pretty scary, and I'm so grateful that my family was there to help.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

again...really?

ok so i thought the heart thing was improving...not so much. yesterday after i got back to work from lunch i was leaving a message for someone and realized that it was kind of hard to talk and keep my voice steady because my heart was beating so hard. so i pulled my handy dandy heart monitor out and it said that i was over 140 bpm. ok. nice. i "captured" what was happening and hoped that it would stop. but after about ten minutes it didnt stop so i thought i should go to the urgent care again.

when i got there they took me right back again and as i was explaining things, the doctor walked in and started out with "i already heard what you said and we're calling 911 and you are going to the emergency room in an ambulance." hi, ever want to really freak a pregnant woman out? because that will do it, stupid doctor. so i said that i wanted adam to take me and that i didnt want an ambulance and that it was all unnecessary, because by that time my heart had settled down and things were almost normal. she then wanted to talk to adam and so i gave them his phone number but somehow they couldnt manage to dial right because it kept going to a fax machine. he was at a dentist appointment so i gave them the dentist's number. i called him and, surprise, was able to get a hold of him—not a fax machine—while they called the dentist office. they got the receptionist at the dentist office and decided that she needed to know what was going on in my life with my health care so that she could promptly tell the whole office. how nice of my nurses/doctor to forgo all the privacy laws they are bound by. as i am talking to adam, i hear the dentist (who is also our bishop, by the way) come in very concerned because "they are taking emily to the hospital in an ambulance. is she having the baby?" so guess what i have to explain on sunday? because we all know that our bishop will ask about me. i told adam what was going on and that i would like him to come and get me. then the doctor came in and was all "i would like to talk to him." fine whatever and she told him everything that i had and that her concern was that i would have another episode on the way and that was why she wanted the ambulance. let me just make this clear, i understand where she was coming from with the concern about another episode and the possible dangers posed while driving myself or having someone else drive me, but i also know my body and have had enough of the episodes this last week to know that it would have been ok. so back to her talking to adam, all he said was "i understand." she took that to mean "sure call the ambulance and ignore everything that my wife is saying about what she is wanting for HER healthcare." so she went and called 911. and while all of this nonsense was going on they were hooking me up to another ekg and oxygen. oxygen? really? am i turning blue? did i say i had shortness of breath? no. no i didnt, i dont need this.

so the ambulance gets there and they come in and get me. the emt's are nice and talking to me and trying to make me feel better. then when we get into the ambulance, the one who was in the back with me was asking me all these questions, and then he goes, "so the doctor said that you are feeling dizzy." not once did i say that i was feeling dizzy. not once. and i told him that and he said something along the lines of "oh, that doctor, she does that." kind of like shes a regular at this and makes stuff up. great. so i got a crap doctor, and that is why i am in an ambulance, which, by the way, i got totally ripped off on. they didnt even use the lights or siren. i feel like if we're going in the ambulance then i better get the full effect, right? thats what i am paying for.

so i get to the hospital, and adam is already there. the nurse does the intake and they do more blood work and yet another ekg and hook me up to even more things. i felt like i was broken and they were trying to tape me back together or something. there were so many cords. while we were waiting for the emergency room doctor, i got tired of the oxygen, so i took that off. but i still had a blood pressure cuff and a million electrodes and wires and one of the things on your finger that measure your oxygen absorption. i slowly started taking all of the hardware off...the only thing this experience has taught me is that i am not a good patient.

about ten minutes before we were set to go, the person from labor and delivery comes to "monitor the baby:)" nice lady, but a little late, seeing that i am set to go. but ok, lets monitor the baby just to know that everything is ok with her. just like every other person that has listened to maizie, she found out just how active maizie really is. the thing is i would know if something was wrong with her, theres no way i could miss it. i know her schedule, i know what foods make her move more, i know when she is the most active, i know her.

finally the doctor came in and we have results!! my heart is normal. there is no irregular heart beat. when the episodes happen, it's as if i was running, just a higher heart rate than normal and not affecting maizie at all. he still wants me to follow up on everything with my primary care doctor but i am good to go. here is where i am supposed to say that i am being good and still wearing my heart monitor...but i am not. i feel like if everything is normal then why bother, so i can go through all of this again? i dont think so...unless i get the lights and siren ;) to be honest i have never had a really high opinion of western medicine and this didnt do much for making it better, and if there is no irregular heart beat or anything then i would be wasting my time and the doctors by recording more of my heart at a "running" pace. who knows, maybe tomorrow i will wake up and feel guilty about not having the monitor on just in case, but right now i am a little too bitter to care.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Hiccups, Sneezing, and Palpitations

so we are now in the 8th month of our pregnancy. maizie is growing and growing and i feel like i cant stretch anymore! but i know i will, it just seems amazing to me that my skin can go any farther than it already has.

maizie is very active and sometimes keeps me up at night with all her moving. she has been getting the hiccups a lot lately and i always feel so bad for her; it cant be fun to have them when you are so confined. she has also been sneezing more often. the other night i was laying next to adam and everything was super still and maizie sneezed and my whole stomach shook. adam was so surprised! he asked if that was me and, i think, was stunned that it was maizie.

i love being able to have this experience! it is one of the best things ever, and so far everything has been good, but this week things have changed a little. on sunday we walked into church and sat down in sacrament meeting and my heart started pounding like i had just gotten done running, and then i started sweating and felt like i was going to die from the heat but my skin was cold. i kept thinking, "just take a deep breath, you are fine" but it wouldn't stop but by that time they were in the middle of passing the sacrament so i didnt want to get up during that and then possibly pass out in between the benches. so i waited. FINALLY they finished passing the sacrament and i could leave. as soon as adam and i got outside everything stopped. my heart stopped pounding, i felt cooler no more sweating, life was good. i didnt really know what to think about what had just happened. scary? yes. was i worried? yes. but if we went to the hospital nothing was happening anymore so what could they do? so i stayed at church through the second hour and then i had adam take me home. lets face it i wasnt really listening much at that point.

we got through monday just fine and i thought ok maybe it was just a fluke kind of thing right? no. tuesday, it happened again. the only difference is the heat and sweating lasted just about all day. i called my midwife, who ordered tests to be done the next day. they came back as 100% normal minus slight anemia, which is normal during pregnancy and easily fixed.

so thursday morning rolls around. i am getting ready for work. i was standing in the bathroom flat ironing my hair and my heart started pounding again. and again this time it was only for a few minutes, if that. so thinking that i should just go to work i got my stuff together and left but as i was driving i couldnt stop crying because i kept thinking, "what if we are missing something here? what if when i am in labor i start to really have problems and something happens that since we are not in a hospital cant be taken care of?" needless to say i didnt even get halfway to work before i had to pull over. i called adam and told him what had happened and i also called my midwife, patricia. she is awesome. she was completely calm and trying to calm me down. she obviously advised me to go to the emergency room if am that worried, but that most likely it was maizie just sitting on something causing my body to have this kind of response, because all of the tests were normal. to be on the safe side i decided it was best to go to urgent care.

i met adam at home and we left for keizer. when we got to the urgent care there was a little bit of a wait and i thought that we would be sitting for a while but as soon as i told them i was having heart issues i was taken back immediately and hooked up to a heart monitor and they did an ekg and blood tests and pee tests. again everything came back normal. BUT now i get to have my very own personal heart monitor for a month. i feel so old. the only time i dont have to wear it is in the shower. they are hoping that if i do have another "episode" that i will be able to capture it with the monitor and then they can have more of an idea of what is happening. the doctor also said that it is "possibly just the baby pressing on something." now if my body stays true to form i can expect to have and episode on saturday seeing that we have gone every other day this week having them. i hope that it doesnt happen again and that it really was maizie doing this, and not a serious issue.

Friday, January 1, 2010

For Auld Lang Syne

Another year has come and gone. Not only that, but another decade has come and gone!

Before I talk about the new year, let me bring you up to speed. Around the beginning of November, I was thinking about mine and Emily's financial situation and how January was going to be difficult since Emily would have so much time off in December. I wasn't necessary worried, but I wasn't sure what we were going to do. I was also thinking that April would be tough since Emily would have even more time off in March when Maizie arrives. Meanwhile, things were kind of a mess at my parents' house due to my grandparents' health (my mom's parents were living with them at the time). My grandparents ended up moving about five miles away, leaving my parents alone in their big house in Silverton. Then my parents offered Emily and me the opportunity to move in with them. Emily and I thought about it and decided to take them up on their offer. We ended up moving in with them on December 19th (two weeks ago tomorrow). Some people might think it's weird for a married couple (especially recently married) to live with their parents, but I promise it's not a bad situation. We totally have our own space and it's completely fine. Anyway, we're now in a much better financial situation. There's a lot of other blessings that have come with this move, too.

Now that you know about that, I can talk about the new year. Yesterday I was by myself at work. I don't mind that at all. In fact, I actually like it because I can really focus on my nerderies :). Pretty much immediately after work, Emily and I went to her parents' house where we celebrated New Year's Eve. Emily's Uncle Brent and Aunt Janet were there too, so there were six of us. There was delicious food, good conversation, and fun games! We played a game that we affectionately call Poohead and we also played Up and Down the River. In between going "down the river" and going "up the river", we watched the following videos on YouTube:









When it was almost midnight, we turned on the TV and flipped through the channels. It was mostly dumb stuff. We saw Jennifer Lopez singing and other stuff. We ended up watching the second half of an episode of the Twilight Zone called "The Grave". Shortly after midnight, we opened the door to see if anybody was making any noise, and there was quite a bit of cheering and we could hear fireworks, too. Emily's dad blew a little horn thing that sounded really funny. It kind of sounded like an injured duck or something :).

On our way home, it was raining, so we had to go quite a bit slower. I took a different route home so that I could show Emily the new route that I take to go home after work. I like it because there are no traffic lights. When we were almost home, we were in a residential area and there was a cop driving in the opposite lane coming towards us. As soon as he passed us, he stopped, turned around, and started following us. I immediately thought about how fast I was going and I thought I might've been going a little bit faster than I should've been. I totally thought he was going to pull me over, but he ended up turning, which was a relief.

At home, my mom was using her laptop and my dad was already sleeping. Apparently he had just barely made it to midnight and then crashed. I can't remember when Emily and I fell asleep, but it was probably between 1:30 and 2:00.

Emily woke up at around 9:00 this morning and I woke up at around 9:45. We've been super lazy today, though. We haven't even gone outside. I'm still in my pajamas and haven't taken a shower. Great way to start off the new year, eh? Jeremy called me from Germany and we talked about video games and movies and stuff. Speaking of which, I recently got to play New Super Mario Bros. Wii at Cody's house. My parents went to visit my aunt and uncle in West Salem, so I had them pick up a copy of the game on their way out there. You know what I'll be doing tonight :)! Emily and I got two free movie passes for Christmas from my uncle Ken. I'd like to see Avatar since it's supposed to be super amazing and worthwhile. Emily would rather see Sherlock Holmes, though, so we're probably going to go with her parents. Emily and her mom will see Sherlock Holmes and her dad and I will see Avatar.

Talking about Avatar got me thinking about the Nickelodeon TV series called Avatar: The Last Airbender. I had never seen it, but Jeremy and Mary said it was good. I'd like to watch the series before the Last Airbender comes out in the summer, so I watched the first episode today. It wasn't bad. I haven't seen enough of the series to really have an opinion on it, though.

After that, Emily and I played three games of Rummikub. I won one and Emily won two.

Other than talking to Jeremy, watching the first episode of Avatar, and playing Rummikub, we haven't done much else. It's been a quiet, lazy day. And that's the start of our 2010. Oh yeah, like I mentioned on Twitter, I'm calling this year "Twenty ten" because it's one syllable less than "Two thousand ten". And that's that.